Like the Rolling Stones

Sunday night was still hanging around on Monday morning when I went out to feed the hilltop cats. The full moon had long since swept the stars from the sky and descended into the dark beyond the hills of Chatsford. A few minutes later when I returned to the dressing room upstairs, I opened the Venetian's and there was the day, wearing a braid in her hair and doing a buck wing dance across the lawn. Just like that. Dark then dawn. I've never been able to figure out just how it's done but I'm sure it involves smoke and mirrors like stage magic.

Ms Wonder was engaged in her Swedish exercises and so I busied myself with the morning routine. I was troubled by recent events and I wanted to discuss them with her but I waited. Focus is absolutely essential when generating the endorphins and I didn't want to distract her. At last she completed her excesses and I spoke.

"Poopsie," I said, "life is difficult."

"Is it?"

"Something always seems to be getting in the way if you know what I mean. Something stops working. Someone's dog barks. The neighbor puts his house up for sale. It's just one damn thing after another."

"Life is suffering," she said.

I mused on this. It seemed harsh for the Wonder Woman and yet it seemed that I'd heard it somewhere before. "I don't know if I'd go that far," I said.

"It's attributed to the Buddha," she said.

"Ah," I said and mused again. I noticed Sagi, the caramel tabby, reclining on the bed and his expresson seemed to suggest that this would be as good a time as any to suspend disbelief. Besides, I'd recently liked the Buddha's Facebook page. "Well, I suppose to some degree life is suffering," I said.

"If it's Her, you're worried about," she said, "I think I have the solution. If She won't go to the mountain, then the mountain will come to Chatsford Hall. The mountain to Mohammed."

This got right by me. Mohammed? That's what she said. I opened my mouth to ask for clarification but found instead that she had not relinquished the floor.

"Don't say anything," she instructed. "You're going to support me in this. Suit up and show up."

Again, with the euphemisms. Suit up? I glanced in the mirror and thought the dove gray shirt with the eggshell and cantaloupe stripes was a good choice for denim jeans. I opened my mouth once more to ask for clarification and, once more, I discovered she was still speaking.

"Don't stand there looking like a scarecrow," she said, "say something for heaven's sake."

Well, this was what I'd been waiting for. Invited to speak, I prepared myself to give tongue, if that's the expression. Doesn't sound right but I'm sure I've heard it somewhere. At that very moment, displaying one of the many characteristics that get her so disliked by right-thinking individuals, Princess Amy, the amygdala with the overactive imagination, mentioned something totally inappropriate and not germane to the issue by a long shot. I immediately noticed a feeling arising in the body that hinted at the dark, moonless night of the soul. More drama from that almond-headed cluster of brain cells it seemed to me. I remember thinking that I'd heard enough from her. The buck stops here I thought to myself.

"The bitch, Brenda, speaks," I said and I meant it to sting. But I meant it to sting Amy, not Ms Wonder. I thought I'd used my inside voice but apparently not.

"Me?" said the Wonder. "Me?" said Amy.

"No, not you," I said to Wonder. "Calm down," I said to Amy.

"Calm down," said Wonder. "I'll calm you down." But she didn't. Instead, she left the room.

"How can I calm down?" said Amy. "It's not in my job description. I'm responsible for identifying the threat level and granting authority for corrective action and that's just what I'll do."

"Yes," I said, "but you tend to over-react. When you get hotted up, you go from lukewarm to incandescent in a moment. You threaten to pop rivets and come apart at the seams. Take a deep breath and chill is my advice. These aren't the droids you seek."

"Oh sure," she said. "You call me your bitch, Brenda, and I'm supposed to calm down?"

"Just a little joke," I said. "It's something that Keith Richards used to call Mick Jaeger. They've had all kinds of tiffs over the years. You know, bedding each other's women and all the usual stuff that rock bands do, and yet, they're still touring after 50 years. That's the way you and I are."

"We bed each other's women?"

"See, that's what I mean. You jump to the most negative interpretation. You know what I meant is that we stick together. We're the Rolling Stones, you and I. We'll stay together no matter what."

This tact worked better than I expected. She became quiet and the tension dissolved. But I knew it was only temporary. Like all front girls in rock bands, it was only a matter of time before she would try to make me her subordinate again. But I would be ready. I'm living fiercely these days--more than ever before and I'm ready for whatever life serves up.

Live mindfully. Stay connected. Never quit. Just like the Stones.

Let's Do It Again

"Ms Wonder," I said, "friends are like flowers."

"Very true," she said. "Georgia O'Keeffe said that to see a flower takes time, just as making friends takes time. She also said..."

"Yes, yes, yes," I said, "wonderful woman, and I'll bet you hold me spellbound telling me about all that she said, but later, please, when I have more time to pay close attention to every word." 

I risked losing her sympathy saying it but I had no other choice. As I'm sure you know, Ms Wonder's fine art photography is inspired by the work of Ms. O'K and she--Poopsie I mean, not O'Keefe--can go on for days about her.

"But are they worth risking eternal torment?" I said. "That is the question I ask myself."

"Pardon?" she said.

"Well, you know what I mean," I said. "That referral business."

"No," she said, "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Ms Wonder," I said. "You simply must start paying closer attention. Your life is slipping right by you. You remember the referral arrangement with Emerald City. Mention someone's name and they get $700.00 and then Mom gets flowers every month for the entire year."

"I follow you so far," she said.

"Well, no one really referred us, did they? We just said someone did so we could split the 700 green ones and get the flowers. That qualifies, unless I've forgotten the rules, as a blatant lie. Pardon me if that seems harsh but the truth will out, even if it doesn't set you free. Running afoul of one or more of the rules carved in stone, if they were carved, puts one in danger of eternal torment."

"Ah, I see now," she said. "You're wondering if $350.00 is worth eternal torment."

"I am not," I said somewhat indignantly. "You must take immediacy into account when considering eternal torment. The money comes now but no one knows when Judgement Day comes. No, it's not the money. What I'm wondering is whether fresh flowers for Mom is worth eternal torment."

"Of course," she said, "I understand now. That is a complex issue."

"I'm going to ask them what kind of flowers. Carnations, definitely not. Roses, certainly. Something in between, I'll have to think about it."

"Good plan," she said.

"Thank you, Ms Wonder."

"It's true what everyone says, that even though you have the mental prowess of a peahen, you do know how to get yours," she said.

As it happens, I've never met a peahen and so couldn't assess the quality of the compliment, but when in doubt, assume the best is my motto.

"Thank you," I said.

"Not at all," she said.

Celtic New Year!

In the Brythonic tongue of Wales, my ancestral home, the term is Calan Gaeaf. It means the first day of winter but it has come to be recognized as the New Year. It was a beautiful Halloween, or Samhain if you ride the broom. The gates to Chadsford Hall open at 6:00 PM to receive whoever and whatever crosses through the veil from Otherworld. Ms. Wonder and I were ready. The candy cauldron was heaped up, pressed down, and running over. Let them come was our attitude.

I will mention parenthetically that we have no fear of the residents on the other side of the veil for we have been neighbors for years and know their children's names. And, last but not least, we have a full complement of cats and, as I mentioned in an earlier post, cats do not abide zombies. Zombies are to cats less than the dust beneath their chariot wheels.

As I said, we were ready. Yet, although the gates oped at 6:00, there were no spirits in sight on the High Street at 6:12. We were stumped. Wouldn't you be? Then Wonder's eyes opened wide and a smile played on her lips. I admit that her behavior interested me strangely.

"What?" I said.

"Fake it till you make it," was all she said but it was enough. She and I have spent years hanging out in the same secret societies and I knew exactly what she was getting at. We opened the front doors wide and carried the cauldron out to the front stoop where we sat and waited.

"It's a wide, windy world we're riding through, Billy Bob," I said as an invocation. I like invocations. Makes me feel like I'm doing something. But it wasn't the invocation, it was the boffo--the going outside to wait for the trick-or-treaters. It was just enough priming to get the crackle flowing. Siempre-bango! Just like that, the veil parted and High Street was filled with spirits.

There were witches and goblins, there were imps and ogres, there was a dragon pulled in a little red wagon followed by a were-lion and a were-catepillar. Fairy princesses, a UPS man, who must have been enchanted by a fairy dancing, and too many more to list here.

It was the most beautiful Halloween night in memory and it lasted until well into It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown.

"Are we going to Jenny and Bill's to see how they made out?" Wonder asked when the last of the spirits returned to Otherworld.

"Hmmm, I think not," I said.

"But I thought you wanted to do that," she said.

"That was before I locked Bill in the handcuffs," I said.

"Excuse me," she said.

"He insisted on demonstrating that he could escape from handcuffs in less than a minute," I said. "So I handcuffed him, hands behind his back, and then he realized that the cuffs were not the cuffs he practiced with."

"So?" asked the Wonder.

"Well, he didn't have a key," I said.

"Poor, Jenny," she said. "But they have a full complement of cats, so I guess it's not as bad as it could be."

We both mused for several minutes. It grew darker.

"Life comes hard and fast," I said.

Beignet Lafayette

I have the best cat in the world. Everyone agrees. He's won the Chadsford Hall Best Cat of the Year for three years running. He's nine years old and at 15.25 pounds, he's in mid-season racing form. If you think he's a bit heavy, then you're probably more familiar with the smaller, run-of-the-mill kitty. 

Ben, that's his name, Beignet Lafayette, is a child of the Neva River--that's my theory anyway. The Slavic soul requires a substantial body.  Not that there's anything wrong with felines that lack Slavic ethnicity. To be sure, all cats will keep the zombies away. Why even the kittens too small to walk straight and having tails that look like lint brushes will send the brain-eaters herky-jerking back to the cemetery if they come from a cemetery. 

So by all means, get a cat. Get two. You can't have too many. The more you have, the less chance there is that they will all be sleeping when the zombies start prowling.

When we were at the cat hospital earlier today, the vet suggested that we begin routine yearly lab workups to make sure Ben is around forever. None of us can imagine what life would be like without him, so he donated a little blood to keep us happy. He got one of those stretchy little bandages around his leg to prevent bleeding. Ever tried to remove one of those? Not as simple as it seems. The material gets all wrapped around and makes it hard to find the pull tab.

When we arrived back home, Ben had an agenda that included lots of socializing with the other cats. This takes a while, of course, sniffing, licking, marking, you know the drill. It must have been the same for Napoleon when reviewing the troops.

I cornered him and pretended to be interested in brushing him, which generally puts him in good humor and distracts him from what the other hand is doing. I found the bandage and began feeling around for the end of it. Ben tolerated about two seconds of this before changing position. I tried again with more determination. He matched my efforts with his own determination, which spoke volumes about leaving his leg alone.

I might have given the whole thing a miss for an hour or so and perhaps gotten some editing done on the book--you remember the book--but no, I decided that bandage was coming off and I knew how to get it done. I rolled up my sleeves and took a deep breath.

Cat wrestling, like alligator wrestling, is best done sparingly and only in season. I lay on the floor for the best orientation and applied a hold that I call the front leg pass-through. Ben seemed to consider this a sign of affection and began purring. Then I reached for that bandage and pinched the leader solidly between the thumb and the first two fingers. I have a lot of practice at this and it was a good firm grip. I tugged.

It must have been the tug that did it. Ben shot out from under me like a crazed weasel and made straight for the doorway, keeping the body close to the floor and using the back legs for the heavy work.  Like the Iditarod musher pulled along by her sled dogs, I was pulled along by that bandage and slid smoothly along the hardwoods. Then he made a sharp right-hand turn and headed down the stairs.

Now, if the cherry floors were smooth, then the oak staircase was bumpy. And there are fourteen steps. I have, over the years, acquired the wisdom to know the difference in situations where I have control and those that I don't. I took the stairs with fair calm. Not too anxious, given the circs. I remember thinking, for some reason that I can't fathom now, that when we hit the tile floor on the lower levels, I would have more options. 

Now, some years ago, I went in for rock climbing, a sport that I'm sure you remember from your own youth. In those days, my toes could find purchase in the smallest crevices, and perhaps I was thinking that the grout lines in the tile would give me something to work with to stop or slow our forward movement, giving me a chance to free my fingers from the bandage.

The plan I had in mind if you can call it a plan, turned out to be no more than the idle wind, which Ben respected not because he continued through the kitchen with me calling out to my mother to look sharp and not get overturned by our wake. 

Eventually, Beignet found a quiet and comfortable spot underneath a sofa in the den and we were done. I pulled the bandage off and he seemed not to notice.

Once again, we see that life comes hard and fast and that it sneaks up on us when we least expect it. Be prepared for anything, of course, and always keep in mind something I learned from our veterinarian... "It's our job to do what's right, not what's convenient." Amen. 

The Witching Hour

It was the hour of the morning break and we had stopped at the Mill in Pittsboro to do a little tissue restoring. We had not planned to stop here. It was a spur of the moment thing. We'd come to check out the Roadhouse, which is in the space that was the General Store, but it was closed for the day. The African Art and French Antique's store wouldn't open for a couple of hours yet. The situation was one that threatened to have the Genome walking around town watching the big clock in the tower of the restored courthouse, which as I'm sure you don't have to be told is not a Genomic thing.

Wynd Horse was carrying us toward Southern Village when Ms. Wonder suddenly spoke. "Turn in here," she said and I did because the Genome is accustomed to making last second course corrections when the Orlov descendent is navigating. Never be surprised at anything life throws at you following an impulsive change in plans. When the path is abandoned, the stuff between the worlds spills out and gums up the works. It happens every time. It just goes to show that we are only toys in the hands of Fate. It's occasions like this that give people the feeling that the gods use us as pawns in a game of cosmic chess. They don't play chess of course. Monopoly is the game of the gods and they like nothing better than the card that reads, Do not pass go but go straight to jail.

A few minutes after making the turn we walked through the pollinator garden and entered a little room filled with cafe tables and original art. The original artist was hanging the last of her paintings. That she was the artist was evident from her conversation with one of the cafe patrons. That she was a witch was evident to me, given my experience and training--I earned a certificate of completion in Witch Finding at Durham Tech. It's true that it's sometimes difficult to distinguish witches from employees of the co-op in Carrboro but I have a knack for these things.

I don't often engage strangers in conversation but you remember that I am writing that book and I seem to have misplaced my witch--the Woodcroft one--and I desperately need some advice and suggestions on the selection of the precise words. Nothing more important than the mot juste for a writer. Words have power, you see. When you express something, you put your energy into it and that energy grows and becomes manifest in the physical world. Take the words, let there be light, for instance. Simple enough if you're looking for simplicity and in the right context, very powerful.


I'm not new to writing or anything like that. I've been published many times and so I'm confident that my words are good enough but good enough isn't gong to make the ideas in my book contagious and that's what I want--viral ideas. A book must have sex appeal to become popular today. It must have a sexy theme or be set in a sexy locale. My words just aren't sexy enough.

I've trained myself through fierce living to stay grounded in the here and now and interrupt the limbic system and the stuff that filters up from the sub-conscious. I remain rooted in the cingular cortex and the ideas that get dredged up through analysis just aren't sexy. Witches, on the other hand, are connected to the ground of all knowing and they're in touch with the stuff that lives between thoughts. My witch, the Woodcroft one, just happens, as Fate would have it, to be a writer.


You can easily understand then why I took action so out of character. I said a quick prayer, commended my soul, if it is a soul, to God and spoke:

"Nice work," I said.

"Thank you."

"I especially like the night gardens. Love the one with red poppies and full moon," I said.

"One of my favorites, too," she said, "They were fun to paint."

"Allows you to enjoy the nighttime gardens even in the daytime," I said.

She gave me a look. Quizzical might describe it. Made me feel the moment for applying the old oil was past and time to roll up the sleeves and get down to it.

"I wonder," I said, "if you know Gladdis of Woodcroft?"

"Who?"

"Gladdis," I repeated, "Witch of Woodcroft."

"No, I don't. Is she an artist?"

"Writer," I said. "She and I have a little support group for word-craft and I seem to have misplaced her. I thought you might have heard of her. You know, small world and all."

"I don't get it," she said and I noticed that her voice had taken on a bit of frosty timbre. "You seem intelligent enough for a man, so why are you asking me, a total stranger, if I know your friend?"

"It's just that I've written this book and reviewers are waiting but it lacks something. It speaks the truth and all that, just as Stephen King advises, but it lacks that certain something, which Seth Godin says makes all the difference. In Hugh McLeod's words, it just isn't sexy enough."

"Sexy?" she said and the jaw seemed a little tight, the lips a straight line. It wasn't going the way I'd hoped. In my mindfulness practice I've come to notice when feelings first begin to stir and what was stirring now felt like hell's foundations quivering. I was conscious of doing a little dance.

"Witches seem to have a way with words," I said, "and I was hoping that Gladdis could offer some help with my wording to give it some zing."

"Ah," she said as though she'd suddenly found what was lost, "are you Genome?"

I stopped dancing. Now it was my turn to wonder what the hey. Before I could put a response together, she began laughing and shaking her head.

"She's told stories of you at the local gatherings. We only allow her to attend if she doesn't talk about Rogue Star. You won't find her though. She's not around. We did an intervention?"

"I'm sorry," I said, "did you say intervention? Is Gladdis a drunk?"

"Oh no, she doesn't drink much. It was that book of hers. It's past 1200 pages and still going. She's powerless to stop writing. We had to do something. Carrboro said her family did one for her brother and it worked for him. So we did a spiral dance, confronted her and convinced her to get into rehab."

"Carrboro?"

"A witch's work is specific to her location. We know each other by the communities we serve."

"Oh, right," I said, "but where do you send someone to recover from writing addiction?"

"She's staying at the Inn at Something Falls," she said.

"But that's not a real place. That's in the world she created in her book."

"Oh, it's real enough," she said. "There's no such thing as fiction in a witch's words. Just speaking or writing them make them so. You should know that. Anyway, she's staying there under the watch of the innkeeper who thinks it's a great idea. If it works, it could mean a new market for the inn.

I had a strangely disconnected feeling. Napoleon must have felt the same when his attaché gave him the news that Nelson had sailed into Cairo with the British fleet and set the French ships on fire.

"I can get a message to her, if you like but she can only reply to your via twitter," she said.

"A tweet?" I said.

"Yeah, we think it's the safest way for her to communicate. With 140 character limit we hope it won't trigger her to indulge her habit. It's the first page that does all the damage."

"I see," I said but I didn't really. "Would you ask her what I can add, some little story maybe, to make my book sparkle. She's read the draft." I added as though that explained something.

"I'll pass it along," she said. "You might expect a tweet later this afternoon."

Just as she predicted, later in the day, the first few bars of Inigota Divita alerted me to the receipt of a tweet. It was from #gladdis@roguestar.

"Save child from runaway horse."

I replied, "What do you mean, save a child from horse?"

Her response came right away, "Can't miss. Huge box office."

I tried to get further clarification but nothing came back. She must have a limit on on tweets from rehab.